So it's been almost 7 weeks since my last post. (If I did my math right... which I prolly didn't)
and so much has happen since I've last wrote... it could prolly fill the events of the next year to come.
But I'd rather not talk about what has happen er what could have happen.
I read my astrology today when I was kinda stressin' on all I have to do for the next week. Surprisingly, I got some kind of spiritual comfort. The horoscope said that I shouldn't fret on the past er the future but just focus on what's goin on now. It said by doing this I could focus on and tackle any obstacles in my way.
I wanna list some things I am grateful for. I think it would be nice practice.
So here goes:
I am thankful for my best friend Mich and her life, I am thankful for my really fun and crazy job, I am grateful for getting re accepted to Incarnate Word, (haha) thanks Mr.Lara! I am grateful for being (pretty) good on my finances. I am grateful for God and my guardian angels always watching out for me. I'm thankful for forgiving and being forgiven. I am grateful for my girlfriends and independent women surrounding me. I am grateful for education and progression and goin' to a school that overall promotes this kind of growth. I am very grateful that my dance teacher is a down-to-earth strong dancer and woman (and not a snob)... :D
So I guess one thing that I would like to share that has happened in my personal life is... me and the boyfriend that i had (officially) since Dec.2008 have broken up. Yup...
I still don't know what to think about it. It's still a mess in my head and I'm sure if I tried to write it out I'd probably turn this blog into a mess as well.
I know I need to pray on it.
I really do.
My ex has been pulling so many stunts. And I am (obviously) a very vocal person... so imagine how I've been trying to bite my tongue... but shit! It's about to fall off!
So there ya go. It's over with.


In other news I know that I need to keep pushing myself forward academically.
I have been kind just floating along (is the best way I can describe it) with all the little and big events going on in the past couple weeks. But I definitely needa get back on track.
Academics, I just needa finish strong and focus on this last week of school as if my life depended on it.
At home I need to be here more, mentally and physically. I needa do some shit around the house
In my own head and personal personal ass life I really need to have some self love and rejuvenation and shit. I wanna run more and be more physical. But really. Really in truly. I wanna write. I wanna write a poem that will leave my fingertips like the last bullet of a gun. I wanna write a poem like they were the last words spoken of a dying wise soul. I poem that is timeless. Without an end. Without a beginning. It just is. It is me boiled over until there is no more. No liquid not even vapor. Because it will all be written right there. A release of myself.
I really want to. If I could do anything. I would write. Write until I felt the stars dripping out of my pen and exhaustion and no more frustrations pressing in on me.
That's how I wanna write.
But until then, I'm gonna being writing to do lists, wishes, upsets and my many upon many thanks.
Good night Blogspot.
It's time I go back to reality. lol
P.S. My fav author was at my school today. I didn't get to see her but it's all good.
I already saw her, got an autograph, and got completely tongue twisted in front of her @ Trinity Univ. about 5 years ago. haha
Good times.
I forgot how much I miss rambling on. Thank you.
-Madam @ Blogspot