Saturday, January 8, 2011


Okay, so I cheated. haha
I took this picture last time I went to New York. I need to upload the pictures from the most recent trip (I’m an expert at procrastination.) When I took this trip I was still trippin' on very illogical ideas and notions, because of that I thought at the time I could NEVER keep up with the hustle and bustle of the city and at times in my trip I was very overwhelmed.
Now, going back with a clear head, I not only thoroughly enjoyed the visit I was also able to embrace the city and everything it had to offer. I always have different perspectives of NYC (this was my fourth trip since I was 10.) Which makes sense; I don't think one ever gets the same perspective when they revisit something. This time it was from the angle of being a young woman with young hopes and dreams tumbling around in my head. I know people walk away with varying ideas on the city but mine, this time, was that I was very inspired. In San Antonio I feel like a lot of things are handed to us. In New York City however, one must get up and go for whatever it is that they want. I love that! The energy in the city is spectacular and never ending. This time getting to meet and converse with some of the locals, I observed they are a very determined bunch, for the most part; this was so invigorating for me! Well, now, I could see myself living there, God willingly when I graduate. One more thing that I would like to say is I noticed I tried to strip away any stereotypes I had of NYC before visiting and also tried to make myself see and feel it as though this way my own city, not so much in a physical sense but more so the way I interpreted it, if that makes any sense. By doing this it helped me to not feel intimidated by anything and thus places and people seemed much more relatable and less foreign to me. This, I believe also helped me to embrace everything that much more. I think I'm REALLY going to have to do that with my next trip I'm taking. I'm really excited for my next trip, which will be international, and I am determined to live my life without letting anxiety get in my way because sometimes I know it can.
Getting back to my New York trip, it was a success and I came back feeling so inspired... something else I came back with was the awareness of how petty some things I left behind in my city were. There is a world out there that is offering me and everyone else SO MUCH opportunity for learning and DOING and we must seize it and
spread love.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

"Tell me a story, even if it's a lie."

Monday, December 20, 2010



Note to self: Don't Blog about it. Be about it.








P.S. I miss you Destiny Antoinette Saenz, wherever you are.... even though the only place you belong is in heaven. <3

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Fell in love with these words when I heard them because they are truth.

"I know that trick.
you're just smelling for smoke.
so you can follow the trail back to a burning house,
so you can find the boy who lost everything in the fire,
to see if you can save him.
Or worse,
find the boy who lit the fire in the first place,
to see if you can change him."

-Sarah Kay

Ohhhh sigh, it's like a universal truth for women like me. haha

I'm excited because I'm going to a Spoken Word event Friday, first time in over a year. :)

Sunday, November 28, 2010


I want to feel pretty and good about my body again (like I did in the picture above).
I don't want it for any other reason than for myself.
I know in order for this to happen I have to stick to a workout regime and drink less. Haha.
I'm not big on fried or greasy foods really, except Mexican food. ;(
But I'm willing to sacrifice. Lol
Either way, I know what I want... and usually once I fully realize it I do everything in my power to get it. I'm not trying to boast, it's just the truth.
I also know that I need to work extra hard to see results a bit quicker... because knowing me, if I don't see results quickly, then I will get disappointed. I'm not going on some crazy diet because I'll just give up... I just want to eat and be healthy again. When this picture was taken I was in Ballet and snacking on carrots. Even though I can't be in a legit dance class I need to do something active... and snack on carrots again. Lol
Well, here I state to myself and to you Blogspot: I am almost 22 years old and I'll be damned if I go another three months of feeling unhealthy!

Love. Love. Love.
Madam @ Blogspot

Thursday, November 4, 2010



One day I hope that my dreams and my reality will crash into each other and it will be terribly wonderful mess.


So , it's a month before my 22nd birthday and also a month before my Finals.
AND... it's about two months from when I depart the SATX airport for New York, New York!!! I'm stoked. About ALL these things.
I wanna have a costume party for my birthday, but I want to pick a theme that both guys and girls will have fun dressing up to.... because I know my friends... the guys will want to dress up just as much as the ladies.
This is my second time to New York in the past year and a half and the fourth time overall. haha
But, it being New York... I never go to the same place twice. And since I'm going to be of legal age to drink this time around it's gonna be twice as sweet. ;)
I'm gonna post places I want to visit while I'm there. I might even stay in a hostel there.
"Chelsea Spot"
All I know is I'm forrsure going to 5 Points this time around. For all those in San Antonio... it's like the "Pepsi Wall" amplified by... ALOT. Lol


-Madam @ Blogspot









Thursday, September 16, 2010



Fuck a nanny. When I have kids, I want my babies to have a Curandera teaching them the ways of the world, how to feed their souls, and about the good vibrations that come off of good people... all while their mommy is at work. That is all.

-Madam @ Blogspot

Monday, September 13, 2010