Can't fucking wait til I go to Chicago!!!
I am so stoked on it. Sorry babe we are not goin back to Philly! That place is shitty as fuck and nasty as hell. Bathrooms that smell like stale heroin and crackheads walking around like the streets are their candy store,...and in a sense they are. Either way yes the Magik Gardens were awesome and the capital building and the nice long walk we took....oh and the meter ladies. Those bitches. But Chicago, I think, is gonna be hella nicer,...plus there's gonna be the same amount of Mexicans there as there is here. haha So we'll feel right at home. :D

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Going to dance class right now! Ahh yes....dance away all my frustations, anger, madness, annoyance. I'm gonna dance until it hurts and push myself the most I can today! :D

I don't think guys should get upset when their girlfriends at like this... they should be flattered
It just means that they are comfortable with their boyfriends and they make them hyper and happy. I really don't see a problem with it... but then again, I'm one of those girls, lol so this is a very bias opinion.
But, I know, I do love to see my boyfriend get happy like a little kid and smiling and laughing....
I couldn't understand how that kind of behavior could annoy a person. Unless you're getting tired or bored. ....And when they don't tell you why they're getting annoyed that's all you really can assume right?? ....

You know what really pisses me off!!! When you're talking to someone and instead of them
listening they really just wanting for their turn to talk...
Like ugh!!!! it fucking pisses me off so much, like how vapid and self centered can you be?!?!?!
you think all people care about is your opinion? or your advice?
God lee! No! sometimes people want to genuinley converse and sometimes even just vent, not to get your opinion or for everyone couple of seconds for you to chime in and tell them, "What you should do is....you see because I had a friend like that...blah...blah...blah."
Like damnit woman shut up!!!!!
And I'm not thinking of one particular person while I'm writing this...although I know it's mostly older women that do it. Especially the loud outspoken ones or just particularly snobby people that want you to shut up so they can just talk to themselves!
Bunch a bitches.
hah.



On a sunnier note, lol, today is Free Day at work today!!!
Hell yea! Butcher paper, coloring, markers and fun fun fun stuff for sure!
Maybe we'll try Twister again... and Oh did I mention pizza!
Hell yea! Mmmmmm Mmmmm good! Minus the Campbells. haha fuck I think I spelled it wrong.

GOOD DAY TO ALL. PS. Tonight I wanna get cheap beer (I guess... : ( .......)
and DANCE and cuss like a sailor. hehe

Yo, so the boyfriend tells me yesterday that he's changing up his plans, to not stop bike riding and not only that, but he wants to continue BMXing until he's like 35. Oh wonderful....
you see most of his friends have ramps in their backyards and some of them even live in a house with just their girlfriend. Okay so honestly, if I have a house the backyard is gonna be for my kids to play in, not my husband and his friends. Sorry!
And this may be a little narcissistic, but I don't think so...cuz I want the spotlight on me and my boyfriend, or lover or even husband...not just on him. This is a two man show, not a one man show. Fuck that shit. And the other day he had the audacity to tell me, "Oh well, maybe one weekend I'll spend with you and the next I'll ride my bike." "Oh yeah cool idea babe. Yeah for sure!....NOT!" So in the past five days, Sunday Monday and Wednesday he worked. and Tuesday and today...or Thursday, he was off and guess where he was.... yep you got it.... Riding his fucking bike. And he's probably....working Friday. But oh hooray he reserved Saturday for me. As you can tell this shit is starting to get on my goddamn nerves. I don't know.... I'm not no back burner shit. And I deserve someone that cares about me and what I want outta of the relationship not just him. Like he comes over to fucking do his homework and sleep. And don't get me wrong I am so happy he's back in school. But fuck, come on now dude! I'm here too. And then he'll say, "Baby, but I see you everyday!" And I'm like, "NO NIGGA! I see your ass everyday!!! Dragging your fucking body around cuz your tired from riding your bike er hanging out all day, and sometimes the legitimate reason of work.Or fucking just falling asleep!" I see you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Fuck, so guess what now, I don't even know if I wanna see you on Saturday!
Fuck.

The Coldest Winter Ever

Badass book, it's like the genuine story that people are too embarrassed to tell. I inhale the words in this book for sure. So personal and real. A bit of a reader at 544 pages though. But ohmygaud so worth it! I borrowed it from my old homegirl Swaye' back in high school and she handed it over and said, "Bitch you not gonna understand half of it, but it's a badass ass fucking book and I think you'll like it." She was right about one thing it was a badass book...lol. And I fucking loved it. Thanks Swaye' wherever you are. And now I wanna pass it on to you. : )

Top Choices of the Red Carpet

FAVORITE DRESS OF THE NIGHT. WOW! Get it Girrllll

SECOND FAV. DRESS. Shoulda seen this in the 360 view. Breathtaking!

THIRD FAVORITE... Muy Buena!

LAST GREAT DRESS. Love this hue on women of this skin color. Always good.


Whats yours?

Madam @ BlogSpot

"You are the bread to my butter.
The breathe to my life."
I love you so much, and I wish that you loved me just as much.
"I want you.
And I want you to want me too."
Not in a sexual or physical yearning.
But in the way, that I want your essence around me, and I want you to want mine too
that I want you to desire my streams of thoughts to drown you and sink you in
In the way that, I want you to want me. All of me.
All of my spirit.
to have me near you. Conversing, laughing, and debating over God and nature and bean an cheese tacos and beef fajita nachos.
That is the way that I yearn for you.
..That you can probably never understand

I love you.

Madam @ BlogSpot

Everyone is everyone.
...Thinking about family alot lately. I'm sure it's cuz of certain events going on lately, but I can't fathom how people can get by without family,or friends that are just as loyal and selfless as family. Either way, I think that a family should be tight knit and always close together. I know that there is always gonna be sibling rivalry and I can only think of three people in my life that their parents are still married, but in the end you have to stick together. I think family is the only true exception to that, "Ride or Die" kind of mentality. You have to be down and loyal for your family. I would never speak ill of my brothers to anyone and I would only want to do things to help them, and I know that they are the same with me, my older brothers are always helping me out and there to give me good advice. The same with my cousin, she is like my sister and although we have been through alot I would do whatever I could to see that they are happy and growing in their lives and I know that they want the same for me. Either way, whatever events that may happen in my family's life I know that we, and that I as an individual are blessed. And I hope that one day you may be able to feel that kind of blessing and trust in someone whether it be family a friend or a lover.
El fin.

P.S. I want to make a bucket list soon. ;D

Tonight is Friday night, January 15, 2010.

A new decade.

hah

And now... a blog.

Either way, it's raining outside, and it has been for the past 24 hours. I miss not having any responsibilities, like work, school, bills, and not enough money. I was doing my homework last night at the coffee shop and I saw the rain falling down the window panes (that took up two stories) and it was actually pretty and calming, like out of a movie. And for that second I missed running around with downtown as my playground and staying out late and the possibility of getting into any kind of trouble that I could find. Nowadays, I feel like I walk on a more straight line. But I still have my fun. I'm not planning on being any kind of blog poet or speaking any enchanting incantations, but I hope that I can write something that is some sort of insight or situations that you may relate to...and just maybe... the rare dose of inspiration.
May the night stay young, the doors stay closed, the music blaring and the drinks overflowing.
Here's until next time.

-Madam @ BlogSpot.