"It says this love isn't good unless... it's me and you."
I always thought it said, "This love isn't gonna last."
That sums up my perception on all my past relationships.
It doesn't hurt anymore like it use to though, it's just how things were
... and then how I perceived them.
Es la vida verdad?
I'm ready to get a job where I can be myself for the summer and bank it.
I wanna get at least two of the tats that I want this summer and I want my nose pierced (for the
3rd time..) haha
but this time there will be a hoop.
Love you Blogspot.
-Madam @ Blogspot.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
This "Intervention" show breaks my heart.
"You turned to the things that killed your blood, your family."
it really breaks my heart.
It hurts to see the people and the families affected by the people that are addicted to these drugs.
This couple already lost two kids before either one turned 30.
Their last child is doing all the drugs that killed his brother and sister.
And you can see how it kills them (his parents) every day.
Mentally. Spiritually. Emotionally. and I'm sure physically.
It must be horrible to tell your own children that you can't believe them because they're always lieing too much, or having to hide your valuables, or knowing they have to constantly check them for markings and make sure they didn't kill themselves.
I'm sure it hurts to be the one addicted. (and I can only imagine)
But can you imagine being the parent to that child?
Whatever their age.
I can only imagine. How it must hurt, because you want to fight your child's battles and hold them and take care of them and not let anything hurt them.
Especially themselves.
But you can't.
The best kind of love in situations like that is just the opposite.
You gotta give that tough love, show them responsibility, show them love yes, but show them they have to be strong.
Because that's the only way they are going to survive and persevere...
is by becoming stronger and making them realize that they really can solve their own problems.
And things do get better. And yes, even they can do this.
...
I think I just realized that I want to work in a rehab at some point in my life...
like seriously.
Good night Blogspot.
You a good friend.
-Madam @ Blogspot
"You turned to the things that killed your blood, your family."
it really breaks my heart.
It hurts to see the people and the families affected by the people that are addicted to these drugs.
This couple already lost two kids before either one turned 30.
Their last child is doing all the drugs that killed his brother and sister.
And you can see how it kills them (his parents) every day.
Mentally. Spiritually. Emotionally. and I'm sure physically.
It must be horrible to tell your own children that you can't believe them because they're always lieing too much, or having to hide your valuables, or knowing they have to constantly check them for markings and make sure they didn't kill themselves.
I'm sure it hurts to be the one addicted. (and I can only imagine)
But can you imagine being the parent to that child?
Whatever their age.
I can only imagine. How it must hurt, because you want to fight your child's battles and hold them and take care of them and not let anything hurt them.
Especially themselves.
But you can't.
The best kind of love in situations like that is just the opposite.
You gotta give that tough love, show them responsibility, show them love yes, but show them they have to be strong.
Because that's the only way they are going to survive and persevere...
is by becoming stronger and making them realize that they really can solve their own problems.
And things do get better. And yes, even they can do this.
...
I think I just realized that I want to work in a rehab at some point in my life...
like seriously.
Good night Blogspot.
You a good friend.
-Madam @ Blogspot
Sunday, May 2, 2010
So lately I've been feeling quite womanly.
I feel like I am really getting in touch with myself again.
I don't wanna get all mo on ya an stuff tho'. haha
I've been hanging around with my girlies and trying to learn and understand from the experienced women in my life and talking about more complex issues and ideas.
Today in mass Father talked about Love.
He talked about commitment, sacrifice and fidelity.
He talked about loving one another like God loves us.
I think this message hit me pretty well.
In all aspects of my life, not just the obvious one.
I really wanna baptize my Goddaughter/2nd cousin already.
Yup, she's 4 years old and still not baptized. But what sucks is her father is a nonpracticing Christian... and yet he still doesn't want her to be baptized in the Catholic church.
I'm hoping he'll come around.
Whether or not you believe in Original Sin she could still be baptized with the idea of knowing you are willing give your daughter and her life to God and his teachings and that you accept him as her savior.
Anyways, I've been feeling good lately.
Although, the past recent relationship I have had really has hurt me and is still bothering me.
I know it's because I have not gotten closure.
I am kind of controlling, so I NEED closure.
And I want to apologize (even though I didn't do shit wrong)
haha
Because I need to ask for forgiveness and then I can start forgiving him for being a complete
jackass motherfucker.
You know... he's more willing to fight and argue the fact that he's slutty "friend" is not a slut.
lol
Instead of willing to fight for us.
What kind of shit is that?
That cut me deep.
He's willing to fight for her and her reputation in my eyes (like I really give a fuck to know this girl's true character.... I don't.) but yet not for me and our so called "love"
that we once shared.
He's changed.
And I feel like I'm changing again...
I pray to God it will be for the better.
This week my goal is TO BE NICER to others
and not so sarcastic and uhhhh cold.
I can't help it. I'm only joking!!! lol
But I will try.
Ohhh and I'm nervous about Wednesday... Michelle knows why. haha
Goodnight.
-Madam @ Blogspot
I feel like I am really getting in touch with myself again.
I don't wanna get all mo on ya an stuff tho'. haha
I've been hanging around with my girlies and trying to learn and understand from the experienced women in my life and talking about more complex issues and ideas.
Today in mass Father talked about Love.
He talked about commitment, sacrifice and fidelity.
He talked about loving one another like God loves us.
I think this message hit me pretty well.
In all aspects of my life, not just the obvious one.
I really wanna baptize my Goddaughter/2nd cousin already.
Yup, she's 4 years old and still not baptized. But what sucks is her father is a nonpracticing Christian... and yet he still doesn't want her to be baptized in the Catholic church.
I'm hoping he'll come around.
Whether or not you believe in Original Sin she could still be baptized with the idea of knowing you are willing give your daughter and her life to God and his teachings and that you accept him as her savior.
Anyways, I've been feeling good lately.
Although, the past recent relationship I have had really has hurt me and is still bothering me.
I know it's because I have not gotten closure.
I am kind of controlling, so I NEED closure.
And I want to apologize (even though I didn't do shit wrong)
haha
Because I need to ask for forgiveness and then I can start forgiving him for being a complete
jackass motherfucker.
You know... he's more willing to fight and argue the fact that he's slutty "friend" is not a slut.
lol
Instead of willing to fight for us.
What kind of shit is that?
That cut me deep.
He's willing to fight for her and her reputation in my eyes (like I really give a fuck to know this girl's true character.... I don't.) but yet not for me and our so called "love"
that we once shared.
He's changed.
And I feel like I'm changing again...
I pray to God it will be for the better.
This week my goal is TO BE NICER to others
and not so sarcastic and uhhhh cold.
I can't help it. I'm only joking!!! lol
But I will try.
Ohhh and I'm nervous about Wednesday... Michelle knows why. haha
Goodnight.
-Madam @ Blogspot
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